please don't tell me that tomorrow will be better and that I'll be okay
because it is a lie tomorrow is going to be just as bad as today
because I've been here before and I know how the game works
every single day that goes by just makes the pain worse
when I have a good day it is always by accident
I would like to know what happened and where my happiness went
you give me a pill and tell me that it will make me feel better
take it twice a day with water and then you will be cured forever
but these pills aren't the miracle cure for what I am feeling inside
if only they would make the pain go away and be my escape, my suicide
Chorus
is death the only way out of this hell
it must be better than these lies you sell
pain always walks right by my side
I need something to be my escape, my suicide
today I feel the same as I did yesterday
I've tried everything to make the pain go away
cause I don't know how much longer I can go on like this
and when I drop a penny in the well feeling okay is my wish
but I don't think that it will come true cause this is not a fairy tale
happily ever afters are not meant for this world everyone's wishes are still for sale
you give me a pill and tell me that it will make me feel better
take it twice a day with water and then you will be cured forever
but these pills aren't the miracle cure for what I am feeling inside
if only they would make the pain go away and be my escape, my suicide
Chorus
Drowning in my own tears
burned alive by my own fears
dying from my very own pain
all of my efforts have been in vain
Chorus
This is AMAZING, and I could totally relate to it as it is exactly how I felt whilst my depressive episodes were at their worst and before I made certain discoveries about myself.
Fantastically well written, I LOVE this piece.
I hope that, if you wrote this about yourself and your own feelings, you are feeling better at the moment - even if it is just slightly better and just a temporary relief then that is better than nothing.
TAAvSM x