there is a television inside my head
I watch it as I lie down to go to bed
I cringe each time that something is said
this television is something that I dread
I watch the sports channel as it plays a football game
but these aren't the players that are in the hall of fame
these are monsters attacking each other just the same
they attack me and my play is one that is quite lame
I watch the weather channel and there is a heat wave coming through
I feel the heat smothering in my blood stream, thickening like glue
the sun stays up all night, never sleeping and I don't know what to do
the heat wave has lasted months so this is nothing that is new
I watch the dicovery channel and discover myself in a false image
I have drawn a self portrait of failure and hate when I am finished
all I see are my doubts, my weaknesses and all of my limits
but determined to be something I take my life and I live it
I watch the horror movie that is on HBO
the monsters captured me and won't let me go
what is going to happen next, I never know
but they will win and I will take each blow
I watch comedy central but it isn't funny
all they show are the monsters hurting me
and maybe it is all really make believe
but to me it feels like a sort of reality
I watch the news but as their top storyline
I am in captivity and they are running out of time
to catch these horrible monsters committing every crime
so they all forget me and go on and I am left behind
on every political channel there is an update on the war
it is getting worse just like every single day before
along the way they forgot what they were fighting for
though they have lost their meaning they still fight more
this is the television in my head
it makes me feel like I am dead
anger makes my face turn red
someone get it out of my head