The silence is murder upon upon my ears
What has come true is my greatest of fears
I find myself every evening alone
whenever this torture will end is unknown
with a bottle of crown, i plot out my end
thinking to whom my final requests i shall send
but what does it matter? They're all just the same.
when i needed them the most, none of them came
this all feels like my fault, of that i am sure
knowing this though, makes me wish I'm with her
but she isn't here now, and I am to blame
That's why it must pain me just to speak of her name
I want this to stop, only know one way how
I'll bring this to an end, and finish this now
the pills they make me tired, and make my heart feel real slow
and as my final thoughts i just want you to know
That i loved her with all my heart, i truly did
and the one ill miss the most is my 2 year old kid
i hope he grows up to be nothing like me at all
so i say for the last time... goodbye to you all