prosaic ponderings on my condition (part 2)

I'm thinking...

I think that I am thinking,

but my thoughts are of things that i thought I'd never need to think of.

I'm tired thinking,

a tiredness from analysis that transmits nothing of substance to a reality that fights its way through my thoughts...

I think that I should stop thinking...

Stop wondering,

stop planning,

stop trying so hard to hold on to a flicker of absolutely nonsensical poetry...

of love...

is it passion that was sought,

and now time we have not?

I think that I've thought about the wrong things...

maybe thoughts of love are not the things that thinking should endeavour to...

thoughts of self- priorities...

I don't have much of those,

i never sought to impose...

i spend a lot of time thinking...

thinking of who i should be,

who can I be, for you...

what is required...

I am so tired...

i can't leave things without thinking...

i need to think,

to analyse,

to realise what i need to do...

what should i do?

I feel so small...

I feel so...

small.

i'm done thinking.


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