This holiday will take me by surprise
Although I have already envisioned it
Upon the thought of being loved this day
Somehow this won’t work its way
My mind my heart hardened
For a reason yet unknown
If someone can tell me how to undo it
I won’t end up alone
Anxious and skeptical at the same time
Wondering what the heck is going through my mind
Shadows pass over while your words sink in
I don’t know why, I don’t know why I won’t let you in
“It’s me not you” said yet enough
But can you believe this is the truth
That my heart does trust
Just not now, just not now
This holiday will bring me closer to myself
And far away from what I really need
If only someone would come shout at me
And tell me to just believe
Believe that all of this is here right now
I can’t ignore the fact my heart is crying
Screaming out loud, for the reasons yet unknown
I can’t, I won’t end up alone
Comical and jealous at the same time
Why have feelings for someone that can’t hide
Clouds cover my true intentions
I don’t know why but I lied, I lied
“You and me” are words often considered as a pair
But do you know I might not end up there?
I might be lonely for this time forward
Forever and ever