Internal Rage

"I know how it feels to be there in that place

I have been there quite often,

but in me it comes out more as rage than depression,

still the rage stems from depression to hide it from others who don't understand.  

I still feel this same rage in my heart everyday,

and I am trying to defeat it.

Yet this is not a task I can take on alone.  

I will fail, but then, when I admit my failures, I am saved, but I don't need to preach to you...

you know the truth in your heart.  

I think you just gotta find it dude.  

I love ya man."



I have been there before...

to that place with the closed door.

Right in my face...

It seems there's nothing I can do to win this race.



Why can't I defeat you?

Don't you know I fight with truth?

Is it just me,

or do I always have to be blind to see...



this rage within me?!

I can't take it no I can't stand it anymore!

I come to you,

but it feels like I'm just knocking on an empty door!



Nothing here to stop me...

No, there's no one around

I hurt myself now I can't see...

the open door standing before me!



Because of this rage within me?!

I can't take it no I can't stand it anymore!

I come to you,

but it feels like I'm just knocking on an empty door!



Can't you feel it now?!

I'm at my breaking point,

and I just can't get myself out!

Please come and save me!

Please come in and remove all of the doubt!



Defeat this rage within me!

I couldn't take it no I could not stand it anymore!

I came to you,

and it feels like I'm just opening a brand new door!

Oh thank you Lord...

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Sometimes, we are put in to situations in life when the enemy is not someone else, but it is ourselves instead.  I think you will find that "myself" or in your case your "self" is both your greatest ally and your worst enemy.  I must rely on the strength of the Lord Jesus Christ to get through these times and others...if you don't believe, I implore you to give it a try, a faithful try, and if you do believe, don't stop because God is always there watching you, waiting for you to return to Him so He can help you...

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