boredom,
mental cannablism,
too fine an appetite
developed,
when confined to
a quiet room,
perhaps russian
roulette will stave
off the hunger,
flirting with
adrenaline,
taking the decision
away, leaving it
to chance,
standing over the edge,
looking into the abyss,
suspended animation,
delayed ejaculation,
waiting for the moment
to let go, but too hard
it is to resist to control
the outcome, no faith
in the pleasure gained,
I know what will happen
before it happens that is
why it is so boring to
exist but no so more then
not, this contradiction:
trying to be and not be,
back and forth to something
and nothing, wanting heads
and tails, true and false, life
and death.
i understand
i understand the want to be something that im normally not. sometimes i want to be heard, appreciated, sometimes even noticed and seen.
i love this piece.
keep it up
Joanna S.
I'm in a state of limbo
I'm in a state of limbo (confusion). Life and death. I want neither. I just want things to stop changing so fast, so I can take a break. Relax.