Mixed Emotions (No Closure)

I cried as you walked away

Couldn't think of the words to say

Just how much I couldn't stand you

Made you mad just like I planned to

Lost control and lost my faith

Held my own and lied in wait

Til I discovered the time was right

To call you out and start a fight

Can't believe I ever trusted

The look of you makes me disgusted

I isolate because of this

Broke my heart with a single kiss

Should've saw deception coming

Shattered pieces, now there's no numbing

Of the pain left by your deceit

I'm smarter than to let this repeat

Now I'm hurting because of your actions

Should've saw the obvious attractions

Left with nothing which is more than i had

Whenever you threw a fit and got mad

Because I accused you of something you did

Scolded you harshly as if you were a kid

So here I am lost and slowly decaying

Maybe I should find myself or maybe start praying

For time to reset and keep you from cheating

But a feeling like this is not worth repeating

You'll probably go and be unfaithful again

And if I can't even trust you then why should we stay friends?

So that would be all I have to say right now

I need some time to think, I just can't understand how

You could look me in my eyes and lie straight to my face

Your deception is hurtful and this relationships a waste

This whole experience was the one thing I'd fear

And I don't know where we would go from here...

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Linda Elaine's picture

Nicely expressed. Been there myself.

LindaElaine

Allecia Verga's picture

great poem i can relate to it...i have a lot of poeple who i thought i could trust that stabbed me in the back...so i know how it feels not to trust anyone....

Jay Price's picture

This is pretty good
i enjoyed everything from begginning to end

Third Person's picture

the understandin and caring person in a relationship is the one who suffers..its always just one person whos lovin and the other one is being loved..sad equation .good job on the poem