i blame myself for not letting you in
though what i did wasnt really a sin
i fought away lust and through hunger and strife
just so that you could be in my life
but ive had it worse as anyone can see
and when you are with me they see you and look right through me.
i wish that i could let you stay
and i wish that you were here today
but you are arrogant and snotty and stuff
i tried but i couldnt- i just couldnt bluff
you lied and you cheated right straight to my face
and now i dont trust you here, there or anyplace
this is your punishment, and i know its not bad
but i loved your being with all that i had
you pushed me away, so far from you then
and now i might never love you again.