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Nathan
i want to tell u that she never left
but i am afraid that ull give up trying
give up on me
the screaming it never left
the images and hauntings, they just hid from me
theyre playing a game with me
i know youve told me to ignore them
but i listen to her and i cant control her
she yells too loud i cant avoid her
and i love her, she makes me feel warm
if anyone could seperate us it would be u
but i feel i ask too much of u
but this is something i cant do on my own
i want to be able to walk back home
without thinking of future night events
without feeling regret and pain
i want so bad to have back my name
but i cant and i dont know why
last time i was so close
but she always comes back
will she always come back?
why wont she leave me alone?
the depression came back and im warm
i cant brethe right now even as i write this
she pushes so heavily...it seems
but im scared and i dont know whats going on
i just want it to stop
but i dont understand why i dont want it to stop
i do want it to stop
but i dont and while i dont it wont
convince me that black is just a color and does not control someones mind
she never left
and i want my body to remain mine
but ive run out of things to do...
do i accept the help from the church?
the pain is spreading now it has never before....
it hurts more than my lungs and chest now
my eyes want to sleep....
my head wants to fall...
my vision is blurry
im scared now again
im sorry i messed things up again
