I put myself in this situation
I feel like my life is always rearranging
I'm constantly reminded of constant changes,
I'm sitting cold hungry confused and lonely
Waiting hating shaking taking all my mistakes
I look into the mirror
Glaring back at the person I hate the most
The reflection of a failed miserable ghost
I have sheltered myself from existence
Hiding trying to find the way home
I have searched near and far
Long and hard over and under
But I'm still here
I've tried yelling and writing messages on the wall
But they ignore them and cover them with paint
Can they not see me
Can they not here me
What the hell am I doing here
I don't belong here
I wish I would of listened
I wish I could take it back
I wish I could breath once again
But but but I can't because I'm dead
I'm dead D E A D dead
No heart beat
No movement not even a single wink
I'm dead
I thought I hated my life
I thought I wanted to die
I thought I didn't belong
I thought yeah I guess I didn't think
I didn't think of how hard this would be
On my friends my family
I guess I never knew how much I cared
But its too late IT'S TOO DAMN LATE!!!
I CANT TAKE IT BACK
THERE IS NO SECOND CHANCES
GET ME THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!!!
Hello hello hello damn it I'm still invisible
I'm not in heaven and I'm not in hell
Where am I!!!!
What is that smell!!
Hello hello anyone help me I'm trapped
I can't get out please save me!!
God damn it why can't anyone hear me
Help help let me out
I don't want to be dead
I don't want to not live
I know I made a mistake
Please I'm not ready to say goodbye
Hello hello (follow me child)
I can hear you can you hear me
(Yes child you are safe now)
I want to go home I want to live
Can you help me
( yes child I can help you)
How how to I get back home
(Open your eyes child)
Omg they see me I'm alive I'm alive
Wait are you god!
(No child I'm the pillow you put over your face)
(I'm the pain u tried to erase)
(I'm the love you tried to embrace)
But but am I dead
(No child your not dead)
(You just experienced a simulation of death)
Now go live your life and be happy
Wait what is your name?
(My name is.....
The end
this poem is so
this poem is so captivating..... you're almost entracted by this feeling of hopelessness and heartache and also regret.... it's really quite fantastic because I feel like I am experiencing all of this first-hand while I'm reading.
Believe it or not I shocked
Believe it or not I shocked myself reading it. I can't believe I wrote it lol