Heart ripped apart
And stabbed by glass
Blood spilled on the floor
Swept up by the past
Smell the stench of the
Pain
I've laid you to rest
And doled out the blame
Put you under arrest
I refuse to fold
I won't back down
You smashed life
Out of my body
Threw me to the ground
At your level
You laughed out loud
Once again
I was doped by love
You tried to mend it
With a stolen hug
I should have realized
Your intent
From our first
Tainted kiss
Left alone to handle the past
Lost amidst the lies you passed
By my radar
I was blinded by my heart
Forgotten by my one true
Love
I fell apart
Leave me here to lick my wounds
No more men allowed
To take advantage of my motherly womb
I'm still here
Alone I stay
Still trying to get you to say...
"I loved you once,
But I fucked it up.
I'm sorry,
You were my one true love.
I'm alone,
Lost here without you.
Come back to me
For I still wait
For the day
You will say...
'I forgive you.
I'm here to stay,
To give you my love
Each and every single day.'
Come here my love.
Rewind the past,
For I am here for you
At last."
Just because he doesn't say it doesn't mean he doesn't think it. I wish that Wayne would not have hurt you so much. It's hard for me to understand the situation some times. I was right there the whole time and I heard it form both sides the whole time. I feel what others feel but I don't respond the same way. So while I may understand the feelings I can't understand the actions. Sometimes I try to and it just upsets you. I'm sorry for that. It upsets me that I loved both of you so much and there was nothing but fighting between you all the time. It upset me that I had to chose sides. It upsets me that Wayne lied to me but it upsets me more that he lied to you. I can forgive him for everything he's ever done to me but I can't forgive him for what he did to you. I would have give you up to him if he had made you happy. he did make you happy sometimes. I don't know if you relized it but everytime you started fighting with each other I was always trying to fix it because it upset me to see you in pain. I might never understand what you went through, I might never understand what Wayne went through, but that doesn't mean that i don't wish to understand, and it doesn't mean that I don't understand what I went through. This poem has a lot of feeling behind it. You use very ugly words in the beginning. Which help to understand the ugliness of what happened. You have amazing mind!