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Christian,

  It's like you could see through it all, everything i put up that fooled everyone else.  After awhile, being with you, I didn't want to hide the real me.  I felt like i could be myself.  You saved me from a life that would otherwise have been very miserable.  I can't imagine how i would have gotten through it all without you. I felt you had insight into my soul.

  No matter what, you always made me smile.  There were times when i thought things would never get back to the way i wanted them, and there you were, always knowing how to make me feel better.  I am eternally grateful for it.  I never really got the chance to tell you that, did I?  I've wanted to for so long now.  

  Even after everything I've been through, with all of them, my thoughts always come back to you, I guess because you have give me so much happiness.  I thought I was over you, but more and more lately, with him gone, i find my dreams wondering to you.  Maybe it's just his absence; it's so hard to hold onto what isn't there.  I don't know.  But I do know that i miss you and i wish with everything in me that we hadn't grown so far apart.  We used to be so close.

  It's been such a long time since I've been able to enjoy a conversation with you, a real conversation.  Still when i talk to you i get depressed for no reason at all, and that confuses me.  It hurts to think that you don't love me anymore.  You'd think after all this time I'd be used to it, but a part of my can't help but cling to the hope that maybe something could develop between us.  

  I don't know if that piece of my heart will ever give up on that dream.  There's a part of me that just wants you to come down here, sweep me up in your arms, and tell me you love me and can't live without me.  It's a vain hope, yes, i know, but it won't go.  Atleast a line of everything i write is, in truth, dedicated to you.  I can't seem to let you go, to shake this feeling, no matter how i try.  I know that i don't have a chance with you, I'm really not asking for that.  Just do this one thing for me: please, whatever you do, where you go.... don't forget me.



Love always,

*me*