for Janny
She is so far away from me,
not because of distance,
but because her pain creates a gap so great,
between herself and my attempts to help.
My only instinct is to hold her back,
Keep her from the darkness she so desperately craves.
I wish I knew the words
that would show her that enduring,
however painful,
will lead to eventual relief.
But I don't think there are words,
and if there are,
they hide from me.
All I can do is tell her what I know,
in my own stumbling way,
and when that doesn't work,
the only thing I can do is care,
and wait, and watch, and hope,
that she will one day emerge into truth,
free of pain
into longed-for relief.