Adirondack Chairs
by Deborah T Johnson
Jigsaw puzzle of greenery, the trees
nestle next to each in the
slicing sideways light of sunset.
The yard in the back is filled with it, filled
with the late, late summer side slant of sun.
The plastic Adirondack chairs shadowed,
left, as we left them, askew,
me, looking at you,
maybe my feet
in your lap...
No, it wasn’t us that set them ajar.
The one time we sat there, your discomfort
grated on my tranquil storybook vision, of us
sitting in the sun,
drinking,
The Wine,
so,
we went inside.
We meant to build a fire that summer,
a fire pit evening of Romance,
but I saw your dis-ease.
Was it the heat?
The drone of the bugs?
The chance of a gnat,
landing
in your drink?
Or was it-
something else,
something not found
in the sideways slant of cooling air.
Something, off in that horizon,
Blocked
by the pale blue, the light blue
house,
Something,
cutting your sight
off
from the road.
It must have been-
because, you said Goodbye,
several times that summer.
A nod, a kiss, and you were off,
in your mind, because you never left,
but sat, in your uncomfortable
sadness
of not belonging here, or where you thought,
you belonged,
wistful plans set ablaze, not by midnight cords of wood
in a pile amongst the rocks, but
set ablaze, by a whimsy, a promise,
not promise.
So,
We sat, that summer, and
watched the flowers in the pots bloom,
and the rains carry one away,
and the gnats gnatting as gnats do,
cannon balling into pinot,
taking up residence,
in that pale blue, light blue house
with plastic mountain chairs
on the lawn.
Those chairs,
those Adirondack chairs,
still sit in the shadow of the slanting sun,
still sit, still sit waiting,
for a time things will be right
with the world.
We just have to get to the other side of That Summer,
find the whimsy,
fulfill the wistful promise,
fly down that open road,
and no longer sit,
in an uncomfortable
sadness,
askew, in plastic
Adirondack
chairs.
Orchid Dust
It slipped to the bricks,
A flight
From a window
Open at
Midnight,
The orchid, given to
Polish the feelings
Rasped by an unpolished man.
A tick of the finger nail
A click on clay pot
Sent it to its two storied
Demise
Swept up with no trace
By the dawn patrol
Of street cleaners with brooms
Swept into dustbins
Or maybe even rescued
With no clue to it’s retinue
Of accommodating women
Silenced with a wink, a gift,
A threat that cooperation
Was much more prized than their worth
So its satisfying crash
Echoed in brick alleys
Soothed more than the trinkets
Bestowed as gags.
The beautiful orchid
More cherished dead
Now, than it was alive.
What’s your first feeling,
Not the first pictures you saw
but what's your first feeling?
Is it the kitchen and you're 3,
The margarine stick and the taste of butter
The thing you craved at 3,
No dairy, not allowed dairy,
so you ate the margarine,
Took slices off it
Cuz you craved the butter.
But what was your first thought,
Your first feeling,
The first vision
That grinds thru your mind
In 8 millimeter flicker,
In tiny photos
Black and white realities
Copies, and copies, with dates,
Or VHS
Taunting you now with static lines,
The realities of failed technology
Out-dated,
You didn’t back it up?
So, what do you see?
What does your mind eye feel?
The atrocities of your memory,
Not banal pictures of Santa encountered,
But the frying pan
On your mother’s temple?