Been feeling pretty uninspired,
The irony my life has been spiraling,
Taking notes about my meditations and dreams,
Going back and forth with myself 'it isnt what it seems'
Even now, writing but not feeling the words,
'How do I feel, how do I feel' no adjectives, no verbs,
To describe my daily illusion,
All the sick as fuck things ive been doing,
These thoughts and white bitches ive been consuming,
Jesus make me believe in you again,
I wanna believe my future could change if I could just see the light through you again,
These crystals around my neck are heavy but im not grounded,
Obsessing about all of the things around me,
Be mine, someone,
Ive lost my contentment,
If I dont feel another body against mine soon I might betray my commitments,
Light eyes give me hope,
I hope she never reads this,
Im an alien, on a terrace, just standing for what I believe in,
These silly words,
These silly words just giving you feeling,
I have none,
Empty but filled with so much expression,
The church would say your blessed and,
You are satan, for including your love for a woman within the same statement,
Im rambling now,
Lucifer the gardian angel of mine who wears a crown,
Send me down a blessing from the sky,
Perferrably a bitch with nice tits, pink lips, and a smile as sharp as a tooth pick,
Make her love me unconditionally even when im acting stupid,
Unconditionally even when im disillusioned...
Oh, and send me a bag of money.