Each time I walk in,
I tell you my name.
“It’s Sherry” I say.
And moments from now,
it will be the same.
Tomorrow, when I enter
your room again—that half-grave;
It will be the same.
They told me
that once you begin to slip
all the time
you’ll altogether go away.
That there will be nothing left
but baggy, slouching skin,
and white eyes that simply reflect.
But you were different, I told them.
So for years,
I would bury you in pictures
and cook your favorite meals
and run to the closet
to dust off your favorite dress
in hopes that you would touch me—
That’s when I would rest my head
on your heavy shoulders
and graze your chest
with my arthritis hands,
and flash you our wedding bands so adamantly.
Yet, that couldn’t stop you
from becoming a moving statue.
“Come back. Come back.”
I used to kneel and shake your knees
like the branches shake
in the Fall wind.
But I found no fruit.
You were dead—just limply erect.
And no sum of water and salt
could revive you.
Sometimes I think of you in the other room,
Usually after the night has scraped my heart dry;
and rise to peep through the slit,
To see if you’ve completely sunken into the bed—
That I know will someday double as your ferry around
the Riverbend.
But you remain.
I know from your obnoxious snoring
That used to keep me awake
Before all of this—
I still remember sending you to the couch
when I couldn’t stand it anymore.
And how I would follow suit afterwards
To sneak into your arms
That always knew I was coming.
My lovely boy, that I chased around the school yard
into high school. Chased into the bedroom
after we wed. Chased through our new home
after you smacked my lower-half and laughed.
What I would give to see your wide smile
on your young face again, to look at me
as you did that first night we slept in your
Mustang—
But those memories happened long ago—
long before you forgot my name:
“Laura?”
“No, it’s Sherry.” I say.
Intense story, lovely.
Intense story, lovely.