It's a pointless conversation
It never leads anywhere
All I feel deep inside is burning anger
I can't take this any longer
And I thank you Father for getting me out of here
A place that drags me down
But the voices keep asking where is your faith?
You're just running away
And I scream, wanting to throw something across this room
To let this bitterness seep out
It grows into an inferno
I can't take this any longer
I wonder if this is all my fault
I feel the need to shout out
that I will no longer fall
Giving into the opression that's upon me
I choose to be a winner and never give up
I choose not to let them choose my path
I choose not to let anyone tell me who I am
By their words they are only digging themselves deeper
Because I know my own self-worth
I am sick and tired of senseless advice
I'm tired of having no spiritual motivation around
I'm just tired of it all
All might God just take it all away
Because I am sick and tired of today
I'm just sick and tired
of people telling me who I am
when they have no clue
I just pray everyday
Cuz it's all I can do
I'm exhausted from people like you who never believe in something better
Expecting me to follow you into the same pit
But I have my own life
and you'll never take me with you
Cuz you can have life as well
But it's all up to you
Live it the way you want
Just don't bring me down
because in the midst of it all
God will raise me up
He'll cause me to rise above the storm
And I just can't deal with your sickness any longer
I can't deal with what you want of me
Because it's just not happening
Stop telling me what is right
when you can't even try in your own life
I'm just tired of the energy being sucked right out of me
So I am giving everything I have to God
I'm going to live this life to it's fullest
and never let anything get in my way
Amen!
This poem reminds me of my own life at times...
~Naomi