Don't tell me who I am!!

It's a pointless conversation

It never leads anywhere

All I feel deep inside is burning anger

I can't take this any longer

And I thank you Father for getting me out of here

A place that drags me down

But the voices keep asking where is your faith?

You're just running away

And I scream, wanting to throw something across this room



To let this bitterness seep out

It grows into an inferno

I can't take this any longer



I wonder if this is all my fault

I feel the need to shout out

that I will no longer fall

Giving into the opression that's upon me



I choose to be a winner and never give up

I choose not to let them choose my path

I choose not to let anyone tell me who I am

By their words they are only digging themselves deeper

Because I know my own self-worth



I am sick and tired of senseless advice

I'm tired of having no spiritual motivation around

I'm just tired of it all

All might God just take it all away



Because I am sick and tired of today

I'm just sick and tired

of people telling me who I am

when they have no clue

I just pray everyday

Cuz it's all I can do



I'm exhausted from people like you who never believe in something better

Expecting me to follow you into the same pit

But I have my own life

and you'll never take me with you

Cuz you can have life as well

But it's all up to you

Live it the way you want

Just don't bring me down

because in the midst of it all

God will raise me up

He'll cause me to rise above the storm



And I just can't deal with your sickness any longer

I can't deal with what you want of me

Because it's just not happening

Stop telling me what is right

when you can't even try in your own life

I'm just tired of the energy being sucked right out of me

So I am giving everything I have to God

I'm going to live this life to it's fullest

and never let anything get in my way

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Just some venting but I do feel it speaks some truth as well. I'm just tired of trying to live a life that is pleasing to someone who is not stable. I may not be the most stable but at least I am trying, opposed to the other person who just sits down and lets their life pass right by. I'm tired of people thinking I am wrong or selfish, just cuz I want to give this life all I have.  This is basically saying I will not let anything stand in my way, and I am my own person. It's realizing how God see's you and words from another person does NOT define who you are. God knows and he will change you if you let him in. Do not give into this world, because it truly angers me when someone tries to tell me otherwise. Stick close to God and get Godly insight and wisdom.

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Amen!
This poem reminds me of my own life at times...

~Naomi