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Well I had so much encouragement this evening. It's been totally amazing, what God is doing. It may not be physial or it may not seem very visible. These are the thoughts that go on through my mind is if God is really there it has to be a physical change. Well that is not the case, and I just know this cuz of what he has done in the past and how my emotions change when I am near God and then when I seem to fade from his word. When I fade I get angry, depressed, and I just fly into rages.  I fly into rages normally when I am by myself, when I fade I tend to look at pornography as well and I am not who God wants me to be. I remember a bible study saying what you do in secret is who you really are and what you do in darkness is who you are. These verse really spoke to me and made me think. What I can tell you though is when I get close to God all the pornographic desires ARE GONE!!! I do not desire it what so ever and can go forever without watching or desiring or thinking it. I also can make clear decisions, people start coming to me, people approach me, I am not angry, I am really at peace and overjoyed. I am stable when I start studying the bible.  I desire to worship, I desire to do studies, and this is what I mean when I say it is not always physical. Your emotions are calm, you can make better decisions, you gain more wisdom, and you start building a stronger faith in Christ.  Then it leads to a more intimate relationship with your Father in Heaven. Then you start noticing all the physical things as well. You will notice the things that God does, and believe me you WILL KNOW when it's God speaking.