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I've messed up again

This must be the hundreth time

And each time I repent

I fall into the same rut again

Each time I admitt, I find myself fighting once again

And I question you, I wonder where you are

Then I feel rotten inside

Cuz I am questioning you the creator

Inside I'm really asking who you are

And I should know, but I still ask

And sometimes you don't answer

then I wonder where my faith is

I wonder if I am what a christian is supposed be

I wonder how could you possibly love me?

Because I screw up so much

and I beg to feel your touch

But I keep hearing you are not near

Especially when I just try

All I feel like doing right now is crying



Father I am not worthy to be called your son

Cuz I've done so many things wrong

I keep trying to reach out to others

But that's just a fraction

I sometimes get scared

when I am confronted

and sometimes I run

But I've told you I would face it all

With you by my side

I should not fear this life

But it's too hard at times to even bare

And I just miss you so much

I need you near

You're my strong tower

and I need you more than ever



I struggle with forgiving

and I struggle with so many things

And these thoughts keep on attacking

I feel like I'm being thrown around

Being punched left right and center

but Father I wished I could concentrate on you better

With my life I just want to be what you want

But I keep doing so many things wrong.

I put you to the side

So how could to stand to be with me tonight?