The problem with me not engulfing certain voids
over a great enough duration of time
is that any scrap becomes a hearty meal
and any stream
even if from another's mountain
becomes the greatest tributary
an anti-heroic sanctuary
for my villainous veins
and their propensity
to bend the laws of chivalry
and ask for an explicit taste
Talons through Charmin fucking Ultra Soft
Sigh
Ut oh
Those judgemental voices swirling tornadically
rip every shred of self-confidence away
I'm OK with why I am
and who I am
a secondary man
but did you want more? Or less?
When pain resides
I feel as though
in order for you to *consider* me
I gotta tap-dance
and lose my percentages
so they can *maybe* become our percentages
and if those odds of success don't satisfy my betting hand
I muck
I don't want to be the hero
or the villain
is that even feasible?
I know I cannot run
from my soul comprised of the freshest
tennis shoes
so I contemplate
palms fisted
and tight-lipped
alone repeating,
'You don't deserve her happiness
because you fall in love too goddamn easily
and you'll ruin her conventional trust'
Rightfully so that
more women should probably never trust a lone wolf
a sensible idea at worst
wise at best
but the vagabond can still feel the cold steel
of your bumper as you pleasure each other's lead feet
in his big, dumb truck
Fuck
Women
Would trust a lone wolf if they could get past the barriers - an iffy proposition assuredly. Intriguing write. Thoughts - slc