Fifty-five Shades.

I'm Fifty-five shades of messed up.

Here is the reasons why... in a straight lineup.

1. When I look in the mirror I hate what I see.

2. I feel like I'm dying when others look at me.

3. Sometimes I feel crazy, like I have voices in my head.

4. I'm always looking around corners, as if someone wants me dead.

5. I've always been this ugly girl, that everyone calls fat.

6. I let people walk across me, I have no back bone. I am a mat.

7. I've never been on a date, so people wonder if I'm gay.
8. I never care what I wear and I hear what other girls say.

9. When people make fun of me, I REALLY want to die.

10. Sometimes when I don't even notice I start to ugly cry.

11. I feel alone in this world as if no one understands.

12. I'm held back from being young by an invisible pair of hands.

13. I've never "made love" and I'm pretty sure I never will.

14. My so called friends tell all my secrets...(boy, if looks could kill.)

15. I have trouble losing weight, so I just eat... and eat.

16. I have small hands like a girl but also sasquatch feet.

17. I have been homeless before, but have never lived on the street.

18. I cannot handle enclosed spaces, or the new people I must meet.

19. I love to sing songs of love, an emotion I have rarely felt.

20. If a guy looks at me too long I feel like I shall melt.

21. I'd like to say i'm straight, but I've never been with a guy.

22. I am so terrified by all these diseases, I may never try.

23. As long as I can remember I've always wanted a child

24. I've never been to a normal party, I fear they'll get to wild.

25. I'm never happy anymore, I think I'm majorly depressed.

But that's enough of my list for now... I'm still working out the rest.

If you look at this list and we have five things in common, you see.

You might want to take a good look at yourself... you're as messed up as me.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Some of this is true in regards to me.... but even more of it is not. I wouldn't dare put to much of myself out there. Feel free to give me feedback if you wish....

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easyas129's picture

soooo beautifully written!

soooo beautifully written!