Your Stupid Best Friend

You were my best friend
My older sister
I was able to talk to you about anything and everything
And we were closer than anything else on this planet
But what happened to us?
I made an extremely stupid mistake
I ruined your relationship because of my problems
I had a problem but I took my anger out on one who was closest to me
What I said should not have been said but kept between you and me
Not put out in the open
But the reason I did it?
I did it because of a bit of jealousy
The nasty Green-Eyed Monster
The Monster that took over me
And made me jealous of my best friend's perfect relationship and her perfect boyfriend
But now because of my stupidity and jealousy and sharp tongue
I ruined your perfect relationship
you broke up with him because of me
Because what I said was stupid and regretful
So now you probably hate me
And I know you hate me because I've known you for too long not to tell you hate me
You were my best friend
My sister The one closest to me
But what happened to us?
You have a terrible best friend who was jealous of you and perfect boyfriend
But the thing is:
Do you know how sorry I am for what I did?

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I lost my best friend to my stupid mistake because of my own personal problems with my boyfriend...so I ruined my best friend's perfect relationship :(

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osiriss-'s picture

i can

relate to this, i lost a best friend who i had known since i was a child --- i fell in love with his girlfriend and she with me... worst mistake i ever made and i payed 10 long years for it... it ended up ruining me as a person, and breaking my spirit... i am just now getting over it, it hurt me extremely bad.

we all make mistakes, and thankfully we are forgiven .. even though we don't deserve it

daniieGigglez's picture

she was my best friend an i

she was my best friend an i was jealous of her an her boyfriend even thou i had my b.f. an i already started too many fights wit her in the past so i dont even know if she'll forgive me this time or not. if she was really my best friend then hopefully she will forgive me but for now the suspense an hatred is killing me

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bless

your heart, you are an honest person and that is a very noble quality - you will be forgiven even if it doesn't happen up front... sometimes forgiveness takes a little while to set ... almost like a piece of pottery, when it's first made it is soft and easy to turn into a pile of clay again... but when it gets fired in a kiln the heat causes it to become a permanent shape which is far more difficult to brake unless it gets smashed. i hope things work out for you, you sound like a very genuine person

daniieGigglez's picture

thank you so much for ur

thank you so much for ur support:)