endless sigh

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My trashcan poetry

my life is like an endless sigh
I try to see the pros rather than the cons
but there are so many more cons
flickering back and forth in a harrowing
taunting dance are all the memories
I told myself I never wanted to forget
those moment's of absolute bliss,
playing out like an old ?video that feels familiar
but oh so bittersweet

I want to break someones head when they say
oh it's just the one that got away
for the love of god I hope that's not true
all those wasted tears that fell with such grace

all the wasted pain, the feelings I held onto
that I won't let die in vain
That forsaken day should never have happened,
but what choice did I have?
You lost your moments long before I did
fate can be so cruel giving us a love that could not be

I can now only watch, numb as time begins to stretch thin
as all the moments I told myself I never wanted to remember
march on by , those seemingly endless days of anguish

blinded by the lure of sin, a game that you can never win
the fights I fought for some lost cause
the blood on my hands that won't wash away
a desperate lover's story that won't pave the road to glory
just a king without a throne who will always be alone

the memories an dreams that I remember bring poems
written in the blood of a wounded heart
the words caught in amber I could never say
but I can write down on paper
I guess you could call me a warrior poet
for I would rather be that than a damned fool
because though it all I still love her

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