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I didn't know then , an I don't know now
why I was always on the run
I didn't have anything to run from but myself
people have different opinions of who I was
but it don't matter I know who I am
I love to love , but have found love is so unpredictable
she said she loved me , then she said she loved me not
leaving me so unstable feeling I was unable
I didn't know then , an I don't know now
what I could of said or what I could of done to make her stay

when I'm alone in my room sometimes I stare at the wall
in the back of my mind I hear my conscience call
asking if I share some of the blame
the answer is yes but I never Played make believe
pretending that I'm true whispering I love you
no need to fear I'll always be here then all at once
I get the call by the time you get back I'll be gone
tear drops made my eyes burn
I can feel pain inside , but I can't explain how it feels
inside my soul because my soul is cold

I didn't know then , an I don't know now
how it was so easy to be taken down by a few simple words
a tidal wave of emotions flooding my mind , driving me insane
I've always been a fighter an I've won most of my fights
even the ones I lost I was getting back up to do it again
at a later date
but from this I don't know if I'm getting back up
I don't think I could do it all again , hell I don't know if I'd even want to try
people throw the word love around like it was a silly game

I hear people talking about friends with benefits
What the fuck! , what happened to true love ?
they say I feel this way cause I'm old an I ain't been out an about
an don't know what it's all about , that's fine with me I am not into pretending

I often reminisce about the first love I ever had thirty five years ago an still counting
were still best of friends an I'd go running back if she would take me
but then again , We weren't pretending , just two kids that didn't know any better

I didn't know then , an I don't know now
how this is going to work it's way around and I damn sure don't know the ending
I do know you can bet your ass it won;t be me pretending

~ DD ~