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Alone in my twelve by twelve cell
television on for nothing more than
for the noise
blowing smoke rings at the ceiling fan
I lay back on the bed trying to remember
when it was I took that first regrettable step
that led me to where I am
I keep asking myself questions
that I have no answers to

If I had not taken that step would I
still of ended up here
which step was it anyway can anyone
or anything tell me
where was I going so fast that I out ran
everything that I ever loved

alone but for the love of a dog
it's going to be another long night
I close my eyes an again I try
to retrace my steps to no avail
there's been to many roads on this journey
of mine
seems to me they all lead to nowhere

was it something I did or didn't do
is it just fate
did I just chose the shortest straw
or could it be punishment from a past life
I may or may not of had

Each day I stumble through one step at a time
each night I fight my enter demons an the depression
that try's to take over my mind
Its a uphill an constant battle I can't afford to lose
what I wouldn't give to feel love again
to hold someone in my arms an not fear the night
I would give anything to be needed again

I' have many questions that I have no answers to

~ DD ~