Her eyes shined like diamonds in the light
diamonds look so beautiful and shiny
but in truth they're nothing more than rock
my mind whispers to me of things long ago
as my fingers caress the letters on the keyboard
I pray a silent and unheard prayer knowing
it'll never be the same again
memories these days are all that's left to me
seems everything I love dies or walks away
My depression is overwhelming
I'm completely numb
suffocating in my sadness
drowning in my pain
but rarely will a tear fall from My eyes
I struggle and fight in this war I have inside
all my demons trying to kill me slowly
as days and nights go by
the chains of anguish weigh mightily upon my steps
do not think for a moment that I wanted this
fighting each new day to overcome this dark place
but fight on I will
my fingers caress the letters on the keyboard and I begin to type
Her eyes shined like diamonds in the light
diamonds look so beautiful and shiny
but in truth they're nothing more than rock
~ D Donner ~
Passages
"...seems everything I love dies or walks away..." Welcome to the old folks group. It ain't what we expected or dreamed -I am supposed to be on an Island sipping drinks with umbrellas in them as a routine daily activity. Writing and drinking like Hemingway. Novels are supposed to be falling from my keyboard to my publishers in NY and Tokyo. As dreams go, it sounds tame, but it is sooooo me.
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Fight those demons and win! When mine show up, and they always do, I float through the entire emotional memory, then when it gets to the hellish part, I ask it to leave. And it does.
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My life is smaller, but happy and safe. With a closed head injury, few memories survive anyway. Be well - slc