And so it is now

And so it is now . . . . 
now that you are gone

in the ashes of aftermath I find
the moments and opportunities I missed
the words I should have said flow from within me
but like the song goes 
to much
to little 
to late

 

And so it is now . . . . 
now that you are gone

I find these years took from me are nothing
next to the fear that loneliness won't ever set me free
I'll never feel love that way again

And so it is now . . .
now that you are gone

I can rally but one claim of truth
I loved you the only way I knew how

 

And so it is now . . . .

 

~ D Donner ~

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running_with_rabbits's picture

<3

<3 "I loved you the only way that I know how" if we all just had the guts to say this to each-other more I wonder how different the world would appear...


Much Love

Ashley

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Well My friend I can't tell

Well My friend I can't tell you how anyone else feels 

But for Me ,I could never say what I was feeling with 
vocal words that didn't sound like gibberish .
I could write them down no problem 
 
I really think it comes from the fear of sounding like a idiot 
or rejection
in some way's I've always been a coward !
when I was younger I had no problem taking on anybody in a fight 
didn't care if it was one on one or five on one 
I had the confidence that Id either win or at least make it where they never wanted to try it again 
 
When it came to asking a Girl out or to dance 
I was Scared to death !!!!
Sometimes enough i didn't try 
I grew up taught You don't start the shit but you damn sure finish it 
Emotions could be used against you  Keep them hid 
to this day I still have the residual effects 
I'd much rather take My chances in a fire fight 
than try to start a conversation with a woman I don't know 
 
Opening up totally an unconditionally leaves you vulnerable
I've done it twice and it didn't end well  
the first I wrote it off as just about everyone fucks up the first love 
the second one put up with My bullshit and the walls 
until I slowly but steadily tore down the walls an built a gazebo
but I found even when you take down the defences 
if you don't communicate well You're fucked  !
 
Well this is entirely longer than I planed on ! lol
I'm out of here !!!! 
   
~ D D ~

Every story-teller bends the myth to his own purpose. that's why a Hero has a thousand faces

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:(

I hear you...it sucks! May I quote parts of your comment on fb?


Much Love

Ashley

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If I cared I'd damn sure

If I cared I'd damn sure wouldn't post it ....lol


Every story-teller bends the myth to his own purpose. that's why a Hero has a thousand faces