by DaddyO
Kink is a coiled community
Of infantile introverts
With borderline personalities
Seeking abuse
From sadistic predatory
Narcissists and histrionic
Extroverts hell bent on hurting
Rather than helping.
Power exchange is
Vampiric co-dependence
At worst and bargaining
Give and take at best.
I'd like to break free from that
And love; hit with a mitt.
Speak sensual not sadistic.
Enthusiastic consent
No matter how enthusiastic
It appears at the time
Is always revoked when regret
Inevitably besets a relationship.
So you become their rapist.
Their stalker.
Their abuser.
Without raping
Or stalking
Or abusing.
Love is not improbable,
It's impossible.
No, it's not you, it's them;
They need to get their life
Back on track before
Any of this can happen.
But by then you've
Violated a boundary
You didn't know existed.
Soon they're in another's arms
Or under another's hand
Once again bound
Recoiled in a ball of anxiety.
But it's bondage
So it's okay.
It's discipline,
It's how we play
Dominance displayed
Domineering fearfulness
That makes submission
Seem substantial
Sado-masochism real
Makes it feel
Knotted together
Momentarily ideal
In supposedly consensual
Ordeals of control
Being batted around
Because there's no sound
No check in for my minutiae
No safe word for her specifics
No red for her, no green for me
I prefer pleasure
But it's always pain
It has to be,
When you've
A toxic addiction
To melancholy
Target Hit
"...But by then you've /Violated a boundary..." and "...you've/A toxic addiction/To melancholy..." these are lines from your brain's syntax that stuck home. Well said. - slc