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A new day begins
No longer scared by the monsters under my bed
now a days more friegtened by the voices in my head
this angel on shoulder has a set of broken wings
with a tilted halo that has lost its shine
the devil on the other barely finds the game fun any more
the pitchfork in his hand dull like his horns
Breaking the rules lost the edge
the fun dyed down til it was no more
Now I'm one and a score or twenty one
My hearts still young,
this body feels old
trying to become an adult
without growing up
carrying the burdens of life
while maintaining a young childs soul
Now there's laughter on the outside, but
it doesn't always make it in
and sometimes my spirit just sits there
broken within
not wanting to be repaired
and other days you wouldn't notice that the thoughts were even there, but
theres a happy thought inside
a bright light if you will
that thing that keeps you going when not much else will
Now I'm one and a score or twenty one
My hearts still young,
this body feels old
trying to become an adult
without growing up
carrying the burdens of life
while maintaining a young childs soul
The skeletons have left the closet
I see them in the mirror everyday
the ghosts of my decisions
linger within the attics of my soul
Sometimes there's hell to pay
for every second of heaven you give yourself
Is it worth it?
You can better your two damn cents it is.
Down this path I travel
with dirt roads and dead ends
and now I'm happy sometimes
even though I don't know where i'm going
I understand where I've been
there no changing the past
the least you can do is try and learn from it
what i will become is a mystery
unraveled day by day
Now I'm one and a score or twenty one
My hearts still young,
this body feels old
trying to become an adult
without growing up
carrying the burdens of life
while maintaining a young childs soul
this child's soul isn't as clean as it once was
but I'd give everything I've had
not to change a thing
I've learned what I am from what I've done
I've learned who I am from who I've met along the way
Every soul i"ve touched
Ever heart I've held
Has made every step of the journey worth it
With all the Happy thoughts and bad memories
I realize it has only just begun
twenty one and young at heart
a tortured body holding together
feeling like its falling apart
its that little kid inside my heart
that keeps me going
its not the fact of being grown up that seems so scary
its getting past the obstacles and demons to get there that frigtens me
and knowing that this childs journey might seem like its been tough
there is so much more good and bad to come
sunrise
sunset
a new day begins
Cx Patterson
