Many desire me for looks and grace
Looking only at my body and face
A very few have seen within
And seen the pain locked in
Most of who have run away
Not wanting to be hurt during their stay
I am so very afraid you see
To let many people see the real me
So I spread my heart through many people
None of them truly know me, not any of those people
I can’t let you see inside my soul
For it is guarded and money cannot pay the high toll
I know you have given me your heart
I had it from the very start
Even still I can’t let go of everything
I have fallen many a time and have broken my wings
Without my wings I cannot fly nor open my doors
Even if I wanted to let you see my pain and sores
I know you love me as I do love you too
Be not upset when I push you away like I sometimes do
Just understand my faults and mind not my mood swings
Soon enough the clouds shall pass away and birds shall sing
~Chrystal
Written on
April 24, 2001