My Grandparents' walnut woods
stood beyond the wildflower meadow
that, itself, grew on the west side
of the small creek that bisected
their property. A crudely built bridge,
just a few old planks nailed together,
gave access across the water to that
other, and more mysterious, side.
Their walnut woods resembled
one in a bad painting of the Pilgrims
making their way on foot to their church,
skirting around their own woods.
At seven years old, I became convinced
that a connection existed between the woods
on my grandparents property and
that other woods in New England
where the Pilgrims had walked.
No one else cared about that.
But my grandparents' woods became
sacrosanct in my mind;
and Thanksgiving at my grandparents'---
with cousins (whom, even then,
I sensed disliked me, an adopted waif;
a fake Coddington at best).
I believed that the walnut woods,
on the far west edge of the property,
held some secret of history,
some artefact left there just for me
by the Pilgrims passing through temporarily.
But I was never allowed to explore them;
not even with parental supervision---
for the thought was "just one of my obsessions,"
that my parents dismissed out of hand.
Quarter of a century passed.
My father's Aunt Jane, the last of
my grandparents' generation, disclosed
that my cousins were fake Coddingtons too;
not descended from my grandfather,
who adopted their mother as his own child.
And my grandparents' homeplace has been
abandoned. Wildflowers and other trees
have flourished on that side of the creek,
after the two ancient cottages fell.
And the walnut woods continue to thrive
and I cannot bear to venture back there now.
Starward
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