Come on over,
spit your filth on me a little more.
Your words that were once encouraging and sane,
aren't alive anymore!
They turned to poison,
rushing through my weakest vain.
Your poetry condemns me,
but that's fine with you,
nevermind what I see.
I fucking love you so much,
but I feel as if your gone too!
I remember walking on the pavement,
that was there just for me and you!
I really thought I knew you,
you're one out of a few I would trust.
So many things happened since you've been gone.
It all doesn't seem to matter to you.
You still think I'm a changed person,
because of something stupid,
that's over and done!
Remind me to never promise anything again...
No more will you find me on my knees,
throwing around thoughtless phrases.
You can find me bleeding from my past traces.
Burn my wrist in your bed of lilies,
just so you remember what we did have...
still lying beneath these unforgiven days!
terri,
i agree with a lot of what you said. i never wished to cause any pain but it's as if these things just happen now. i've always given unconditional love. maybe the bondaries of unconditional were torn. i don't want to hurt, believe me that i want to forgive. but honestly... i can't. i've tried, but i get nowhere. sometimes i just get disgusted and others simply sad. i don't mean to hurt anyone. but i was hurt very badly and certain things just have to remain like that. all of my luck & love goes out to you, send my love to joy & everyone, i miss you you terri!
-love, nikki
this poem says a lot about the difference between unconditional love and the kind of love that most of the world gives. It goes like this:" You act the way I want you to, and I will love you.This kind of love and friendship is based on conditions to be met by the other party. If you meet their conditions, well, than they love you, and you are "in good" with them...If you fail to meet their standards or make a mistake, they don't want you anymore...And forgiveness to these people doesn't exsit. They don't really know what it is...True love, and true forgiveness...These most important attributes, not many people know.That's why there is so much hurt and pain in this world...People want to control...and when its out of their control they get angry , hurt etc...Because their love is only really of "themselves" and what you can do for them...Not the love that says "what can I do for you?"
The only thing I would like to see changed is the one word. I believe you could have expressed yourself without that.Anyway, Forgive them for they know not what they do'Remember as you deal with people to keep forgiving as your heart will remain unblemished...Just keep on doing the right thing...I am sorry for the pain I feel through this poem...
good writing
All I know, is I hope this wasn't about me! yikes* STEFFI you sound so angry. Writing is good, again, great to vent and get those feelings out, but, please, Let the people that piss you off know what they are doing......Share your feelings with them, they may not know that they hurt you so badly, you just may open their eyes by sharing your pain that they have caused.
My heart clenches when I read this for the 3rd time now, lots and lots of feelings were put into this........not me though right!??! LOL!
Luv ya 4EVR kiddo!
~your Sister