(19) 1/31/86 My Real Dad

 

My Real Dad
by Elizabeth Van Cleve (January 31, 1986) 

 

I remember the sunny day

Walkin', places I like to go

Showin' my Real dad

the riddle book in my hands

 

"What's big and red and eats rocks?"

My Real dad would try and guess

He'd guess wrong and I was glad

'cause I knew the answer

 

"A big red rock eater"

My Real dad would laugh

And he'd laugh loud

Really loud and I was proud

 

He'd laugh at all my riddles

Even the ones not very funny

I loved makin' my Real dad laugh

So, I could laugh then too

 

"What's black an' white an' red all over?"

I hoped he'd guess a newspaper like my mom

Then he almost gave up and didn't say it

"No Daddy," I said, "A Sunburned Zebra."

 

Sometimes he wouldn't guess at all

I guess he just got tired

So, I told him to say, 'I give up'

'cause he'd never get 'em right 

 

I wished I was big like my Real dad

He could reach the good plums up high

He'd hand me 'em and I'd eat 'em all up

Then he'd laugh, 'cause they're for the bucket

 

We ate a lot of plums

or sorta I did, he said

I found lots of blackberries

He wished he could reach the low ones

 

Then it was time, to go back

I wished I could see him all the time

That he could live in my house here

And the other dad would go away

 

He wanted to see me every weekend

And asked me if I'd like it

"Would we take walks all the time?"

"Of course," he said, "and go fruit pickin'"

 

So, he asked my mom and the other dad

They yelled at my Real dad

This made me cry

but I couldn't tell 'em to stop

 

They yelled at him, they'd yell at me

So, I didn't speak the words

of "Don't you hurt my Real dad;

He only wants to love me."

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

The gaps in the eighties where I wrote no poems, I did write.  I developed my writing through keeping journals, writing letters, and working on novels I hoped to publish one day.  This piece I wrote in a "open education" creative writing class.  The assignment was to write a poem in a child's voice.  I wrote of a day I spent with my father.  I gave this poem to him many years later on Father's Day.  I thought it would touch him as it had me.  He read it and put it away saying nothing about it.  He had another drink.  It is still a poem dear to me.  Many people have said it's good.  It's enough that I know it is.  I'm sure I'll write more poems about my dad whether he feels worthy of my love or not.

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i must admit it took me a bit to click on this one....i like it, i kinda know how that one feels, and i find it funny how children w/o the 'perfect' home situation all kinda feel the same...ok yeah i don't know where i was going w/ that...
~noelle