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Amber.
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Pedestals. the clouds swallowed up the sky,
dominating the distance
with rain in the forecast
they crept along, swiftly.
thoughts in the void of my head
called to my sense, my stomach felt empty
just as my heart once did.
the wind blew trees to the sway of a random beat,
birds flew atop the breeze
possibly scattering home, before the rain fell,
how free they were.
love like i deserved and fantasized
settled into me, like compassion for so many
i felt complete.
the idle effect
so long subdued, i felt removed,
i changed my view, i see clearer
because of how i want to be, for you.
simple, yet complicated,
i am willing, to sacrifice the fake for the truth.
i trust in the gains of my heart, wanting and longing,
for your face, i have my faith.
you make me, strength isn't weak,
i let you, in.
serenity breaks upon the soul,
your unaware, of all, but love
i hold, in my eyes,
these details, freckles, and beautiful
smiles, yet secrets, and humble pledges,
recognize me?
i am, what you want me to be... do you see?
amber.
do you see . . .
the things upon me?
these nightmares that makeup my flesh
this thing that slithers from between my lips
and makes itself speak - did those words come from me
I can not bite my own tongue!
I would surely die living in a cess pool of lies
I have spoken the truth of myself and look!
See what it has netted me?
To gaze upon the light of a brilliant soul
and stand on the sidelines because he wont have me
if I am not . . .
as he wishes to see me
constantly?
I have spoken the truth and see what it netted me?
Where are your friends when you need to feed?
slashing with you at your own wrists
enjoying the taste and the sight - watching you bleed
never seeing
never hearing
your silent misery
You dont know the answer . . .
you havent gazed into my abyss
I have asked you once
as I have asked myself
. . . where am I when I am lost?