where have you left me?
how can i go?
deep inside my soul
i feel the pull.
what control have you left for me
to gain? to lose?
i watched the things i thought i knew,
fade and crumble from my view
i toiled forever,
unwilling to believe...,
and still i cant,
how weak,
i am, you made, me be.
what else is left?
but for you to take my heart,
and leave,
you thief.
can i ever trust again?
will the bridges you burned within me,
ever rebuild themselves,
for someone else?
what broken hearted terms i have come under,
and wonder is wounded, i have no reunions
no place to feel safe, no comfort, no name,
i can't relate, to the world,
you left me here, and inside,
i'm broke.
i put you up, i held you above,
thanked love for the day,
you introduced me, to the sun
when all there was,
was the rain.
removed from the gloom, oh, how i flourished,
but back again, reintroduced,
i'm back to the confusion, and a question.
is happiness, an illusion?
the longing, is empty
the tragedy true,
my head is so lost, my heart, hurt and bruised,
and i, feeling used,
i'm tired, -yes- but alive enough,
to realize, that trust,
is dangerous,
the emptiness of love can be,
and for some is.....,
misdirected,
and i am, so removed.
anymore,
who i am? i wonder
but answers,
flutter in
and out of my head,
like whispers of a dream,
that has never been.
and i wait,
patiently.
as always, I refer to your words for comfort...my security blanket. when the rest of the world is out of reach, it is you....thousands of miles away that can comfort me...ahhhh...quite amazing...the effect you can have on a wanderig soul...
Thinking of you always~
~me