From the bottom up of this secret code,
we never cared who lifted us up or destroyed us.
With each bite of this fruit and its succulence
The flavors over threw you
Sounds of cars and life never seemed so close
And every morning below me
There are rattling chains
And severed heads and winged tipped foot steps
This town out drew me
From my window, you watch me undress
And watch me drag my kitchen chair
From this room to that.
I always compose myself into the middle of the seat
And from the back of my head
You could see every motion
Of everything I have ever felt.
This time I will find you
Within these hours
When everything is dimly lit
I choose to drink and spin the needle
Into the opposite side of the grain
And I become a wave
And it has always been acceptable
To become this wreckless
To retreat like a soldier under fire
To be content with just a gaze
And a selfish reason.
Itβs just another morning all alone.
From my tiny kitchen window
I wait for the sound of you on the gravel
But the sound never comes
And my dinner rots on the table
I am dizzy from this scene
And to hold this close to me, darling
Is to say that I cheated myself once again.
For you, I was a loser in this game.
Love has always been this intricate design
That everyone miscalculated
And freed themselves from.
And like what the masses say
It is always different behind the drawn shades.
But I unswervingly say,
I will find you.
I will unload a full magazine
And find you.
I can imagine, the stranger, you wrote this for.
Or maybe it wasn't a stranger at all. The mystery of it sways, for sure. And the weapon of your lonliness here, is much stronger then that machine gun of yours.
"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.
Ill always adore this one and
Ill always adore this one and hold it so close. It reeks of internal battles and forbidden loves.
"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.