I'm searching for my past.
I'm searching for my present.
I'm searching for my space. I'm searching for my place.
Who am I? is what I cry.
I'm trying to see who I am.
Where do I belong? Where do I fit?
My today.
I'm trying to find my way.
I'm trying to determine.
I'm trying to know, where it is now, that
I'm supposed to go.
I think that if you have a library, that you should go there and start reading history books, sociology books, mental health books, etc. Unless you are already informed on these matters, but it does help a person to figure themselves out when the person has all these questions such as what you have. Also, most importantly, study the contents of the Bible with someone, in this way you have companionship and you grow to know the God of the Bible, which, is truly rewarding.