years of waiting
planning
and scheming
years of wishing
hating
and dreaming
years of empty
of you not there
years of blaming myself
being weighed down with care
years went by
no contact was made
yet you still crossed through my mind
memories replayed
the anger, it fueled me
your memory, it ruled me
even in your absence,
you found ways to abuse me
no more
one simple call
try ending it all
you still do not care
no information you'd share
your words were the same
pointing your finger
replacing the blame
who you are,
i may never know
your inner love
you'll never show
you are nothing
your love is shit
all your faults
you could not admit
fuck you and your lies
your tired alabis
i'm grown, wise
good bye
i just want to say that i totally understand you, you lvoe someone so much and they leave, your wondering, Humm are they thinking of me as much as im thinking of them, it kills you inside, it eats you alive... this poem i hold dear to my heart.... you wrote this so well...GREAT WORK!
love crystal