6 year itch

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Venting Daddy

years of waiting

planning

and scheming

years of wishing

hating

and dreaming

years of empty

of you not there

years of blaming myself

being weighed down with care

years went by

no contact was made

yet you still crossed through my mind

memories replayed

the anger, it fueled me

your memory, it ruled me

even in your absence,

you found ways to abuse me

no more

one simple call

try ending it all

you still do not care

no information you'd share

your words were the same

pointing your finger

replacing the blame

who you are,

i may never know

your inner love

you'll never show

you are nothing

your love is shit

all your faults

you could not admit

fuck you and your lies

your tired alabis

i'm grown, wise



good bye

Author's Notes/Comments: 

6 years of nothing, how many years before that of being microscopic in his sight? 6 years of trying to make sense of it all, only to have him say he doesn't care about any of it. Fuck him, he's no father of mine.

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Crystal Hecklinger's picture

i just want to say that i totally understand you, you lvoe someone so much and they leave, your wondering, Humm are they thinking of me as much as im thinking of them, it kills you inside, it eats you alive... this poem i hold dear to my heart.... you wrote this so well...GREAT WORK!
love crystal