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As my eyes stare at the screen

Pale movement reflects a glare

In the pool of black; my pupil

Text is on the computer screen

Displayed as lonely actions

Hollow, distant echos..

I close my eyes and think; imagine

The actions soothe yet rip at my heart

A never-ending tide of mixed emotions

Mood swings claw their way to my mind

I have to stand three more months of this

Nonsense pretending

That the text is real

That I can feel it on my skin

When all I feel is lonliness

Cold, numbness consumes my fingertips

As I type the actions back

Hoping he likes them

More than I do

Hoping that three months from now

He'll be here

Even if only a short while

It'll help me carry on

We'll hold eachother

Like we've been dreaming of

And things will be fine..

Three months...

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Not being able to ever physically touch someone hurts more than you know...makes you wish you would die and touch in the afterlife. Corny, but the way I feel. I don't care if people like this one or not, it wasn't written for people to like; I actually think it's pretty good.
Dedicated to Chris; m'love, you amaze me everytime we talk. I love you so much..

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©27 August 2004 - 3:20pm — cherry_blossom
27 August 2004 - 3:29pm — The Nameless Wanderer (not verified)
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I know how you feel except for the dying part. Hard for me too mostly why I haven't been sleeping well lately. Want to be with you not here. I love you so much Dee never forget that and if it does bother you I'll stop. I do it at times because it helps me a bit but hurts me just the same.

28 August 2004 - 5:40am — tigerlily (not verified)
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*sighs deeply* exactly how I felt for 3 years Dea...you'll be alright..just be patient..ok