Sleep is hard to find within myself...
My brain screams from over exhaustion
And my body aches from no sleep
The medicine-induced sleep that I know so well..
Isn't really sleep...
Just more like a black-out...
No dreams or fresh-new feeling when I wake up...
Just the same old aching as before I blacked-out...
Like I didn't even fall asleep at all..
The medication is not meant for sleep..
Nor am I supposed to take it for sleep...
I shouldn't be taking it at all...
But I still have half of a bottle left...
Anti-depressants...
Maybe if I swallowed the rest..
I would feel something that I haven't in a while..
I'd overdose...
I'd die of happiness.