People think I'm fine
Ever since you walked out of my life4
I just shield the fear
I keep the pain deep inside
No one realizes how scared I am
Everytime I'm alone with a guy
I think about that night
Should I be glad one of us had fun?
Everytime someone raises their hand
I cover my face in fear
I don't want them bruises
Or have them oh so familar tears
So people think I'm fine
But in reality I'm not
And because of you
I may never be again
Oh wow... I'm sorry that he put you through so much pain. I'm sure that you're a very special, pretty, and sweet girl and that you're going to find someone much better than him. He doesn't sound like he was that good of a guy. From the poem, I can guess that he was very abusive and one night he took total advantage of you. You should acknowledge and realize that not all guys like that.