PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

     Challenged by your unique view I must find strength to change everything about myself. I have seen the effective daily habits of happy people bustling with energy that comes from god knows where. I have soaked up their routines to better myself and give a correct fulfillment in my life. I surrounded my social self with examples of just being happy through lackadaisical actions which provide no merit of achievement, no feelings of pride to say I'm just as good. I look down on everything Ive done and feel disgusted with the way I drink and waste time on childish things. There is a part of me that wishes to wake up everyday with a sense of urgency, to wake up and not want to waste a second so I can be proficient enough to say I exist instead of this feeling like I'm searching for the exit. I'm floating in shark infested waters and I can't break free from the grips of my own reality. I will change. I recognize the problem and I will step forward in solving it. I will work on writing, on learning new skills, having a better grip on anxieties, not always having to humor an argument where the other person is completely ignorant of correct information. The contrarians do not care for the facts, only the debates as sport. I'm here for a moment and gone the next. Life is a gift, not a guarentee, not a curse. I must change perspective.