I turned up a small bottle
Back then
I was young,
far from home,
and the only thing
I cared about
were the voices
not the facts
or the fictions
not the adult decisions
or the harder choices
I turned up a small bottle
lifted from a pharamacy
to deal with problems
you couldn't fathom
because you've never
had them
The rush of bitter liquids
and apathetic tounges twisting
kiss me on the cheek
and wish away what's left to sleep,
My friends all look at me
right before they dissolve
back to white noise
curled on couches
coming back from the dead
we regale the visions
were not visions at all,
They were real
and we were some
steady camera men
capturing what we could
before the moment
ceased to be,
I was dirty back then,
a kind hearted kid
but my god
did I want to see color
explode into us
and bounce off each other
in a brilliant exibition
of mind vs. body
until the kidneys filtered
this mess out of us,
"Beware the Dexters"
they would say,
They go nowhere
but only to an imaginary place
to play in thought
and static,
a sea of white
to hold me tight
and keep those thoughts at bay
all that I held tragic
was a memory I'd like to forget,
Everything in that bottle though
was all I thought was magic
minus the rabbit
multiply the regret
Message Bottled
After midnight, I ran into a poet. Bam! Knocked myself out! - So much mind behind the lines - Just Bein' Stella