I don't want to be alone
but I hate to be bothered,
I'd like to feel important
destiny gripping five fingers
acting flush like my father,
Systems crash that dream's reality
When we find rationality without posture,
So bruised this broken concept
that talks shit to the bouncer
now led outside to wonder
with a parade of fleshy exchanges
all accumulating to something wicked,
A pulp of mangled confusion grows quite,
the sound of thunder
is the only thing that makes the sweating stop
People scare the hell out of me
like back when I was two feet
crawling around i.e.: basic toddler,
and when I get away
Its a bank hiest style escape
to some where far away
where my eyes can't decieve me
and the radiation is natural,
Out in the glow is where I'm formed
and made whole,
In this land of steel I've grown cold
I keep darkness around
when the sun is in my eyes,
The aggravation of positive thoughts
poking me like pin pricks
in this useless synapse of connect the dots,
I've thought until the memory turns to rot,
If I cast the ballet, I cast it with the darker lot
of crooked cast aways,
I've ran the race
but sitting with the darkness I keep around
I find duality in its company,
When I'm alone, its easy
But being lonely is hard,
Guiding lights call to me
from a haze of faces laughing
all discussing the future
or the love of a life worth living,
covering their smiles with pint glasses
but the fire in their eyes is clear
Bravo! !! Lots in here all of
Bravo! !! Lots in here all of it necessary! Hugss
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."
"...a life worth living..."
It is (or for me mostly it was) now I do the easy and write to avoid lonely). Wallace Stevens: "I can not bring the world quite round, although I patch it as I can..." allets