It's January 15, 1996
My brother and I go sledding down a hill
that's across the street from our house,
It's so white outside the reflection of the sun
bounces off the snow and makes everything
a blinding white confession you can't see,
Some kids from the neighborhood are there
despite the marital problems they deal with at home
so they use this time as a vacation from the feeling of alone,
We all take turns sledding
each kid trying to go faster than before
racing ghosts in a time trial of icy spray,
The hill were on is our neighbors driveway
and it empties into the street
making the lookouts work overtime by yelling "Car!"
if need be,
My brother was up next
and I was the lookout,
I post at the top of the hill scanning the street
and yell to him that it's clear,
He runs like a madman possesed and hits the sled at speed
but that's when I notice a truck throttling down the road,
I yell and crack my voice trying to pierce the veil of excitement
but it's too late,
he sleds out in the road
and the truck comes within inches of making me
an only child,
Filling the seats of pews in a funeral parlor
The isles packed with tired sighs
The truck, now in a ditch, ejects the operator in a frenzied stich
"What in the fuck are you kids doing sledding into the street!"
my brother, shaking like tetonic plates
points to me and paints me suspect
and to this day I wonder what would have happened
if my brother was struck
A memory that follows suit,
as I can't strike it
damn
damn