I have looked and seen many things, though I have not seen it all;
I have known many things, but have not known it all:
Where then are those who wonder
where dwells the soul of God?
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in the cupping of my hands,
there lies a shadow,
that seeps away through uncurling fingers
to mark even the deeps of the darkest nights
- is this the soul of God?
there is a pain that lurks behind my eyes
that often lines my mind,
like veins drawn blue
beneath the tourniquet
- is this the soul of God?
there is a wild crazed bird that flies my brain
that never comes within my reach
yet never soars beyond my sight,
whose legs are severed above the knees
and whose song falls just outside the range
of my straining ears to hear,
(yet I know somehow she sings to me)
- is this the soul of God?
motions I have felt,
something disturbing darkly
the profundity of the sea,
raising fretful waves that shoreward falling
growl in severe distemperament
only to futile smash in dismal disarray
- yet in such motions lies
the humbling of the starkest peaks;
- is this the soul of God?
the crow that hobbles to pick the eye
of some mouldering roadside kill,
black sheening in the day’s late sun,
calling cracked, stiff, and archly
strutting
to piecemeal cleanse the stains of death
- is this the soul of God?
the hand that grasps the screaming mouth,
the boot that breaks the crumpled back,
the mind that inks the passing pen
that scrawls the sentence on the walls
of propitious executions;
the fevered silence and tight bitten lip
in a theatre of stainless metaphors
where lives are crutched from bleeding wombs
-is this the soul of God?
the soft swung closing of a heart
shut against another,
the harsh metallic clanging of
one mind set against all others,
the cataratic staring of a billion eyes
locked on lemming futures,
the echo of a hollow soul
where no other voice has spoken,
the tearless crying of silent wailing
where voices cannot be heard,
the scornful sneers and long suffering glances
and the sheer parasitical persistence
in the cradles of our children;
in the temples of our fathers;
in the morgue rooms of our cities;
- is this the soul of God?
Who is there to dare to tell me where dwells
the soul of God?
In deed and heart Let there be the fear of God,
In deed and heart Let there be the fear:
Fear that from the heart of the sore reaved land
we have torn the soul of God
and bound it to the realm of man;
Fear that what we have really left
as inheritance for our children,
is that it is all that we have come to, here,
to idolise the faces
we see reflected in our own blood’s sheen
when we stare into the future,
and now not knowing the growing thunder
of our own heart’s manic pounding
we can but stare in scarce concealed derision
as blade-slashed our own flesh opens
and with our hands still steaming from
the death blood of our dreaming
cry:
"Is this the soul of God?"
Wow. I have always wondered about things like that, and I found that rather interesting. And even at that length, its quite easy to read, its not terribly choppy. Just wanted to say so.
I'm a psycho, not a doctor.