Despondent,
she sits alone.
So beaten down inside.
She no longer, even cares,
and takes it all
in stride.
~*~
These walls have become
her prison,
that nothing can break apart.
Both the actual foundation-
and the ones,
she's constructed around her heart.
~*~
She longs for
an open window-
to free her from this fate.
But only stark
and solid surroundings,
cement her lonely state.
~*~
There she sits,
and stares,
numbed by years of sorrow.
So emotionally drained
and empty,
she fears for each tomorrow.
~*~
She knows that there's
a door,
and that she could finally, be free.
But no one's ever tried
to help her open it,
even though they hold the key.
~*~
What could she have done,
to have earned
such utter disdain?
All she ever did was love,
yet, was only repaid-
with pain.
~*~
She gave all, of herself,
till nothing was left
to keep.
So deaf are they,
to her sadness,
they never hear her weep.
~*~
Long past dreaming
and wishing,
in things that never came to be.
She knows no one,
would even notice,
if life from her, would flee.
~*~
How she even got here,
is a mystery
she can't unravel.
For this was not,
a path she'd choose,
or willingly, would travel.
~*~
All she's ever wanted,
was acceptance...
and to be loved.
But all she gets,
is pretend emotion,
and pushed aside and shoved.
~*~
She's learned to hide the hurt,
behind her
welcoming smile.
Knowing the truth,
that their false concern,
will only last awhile.
~*~
Never did she, set out to hurt,
and if she did,
she'd aploogize.
But she always saw,
the hurtful truths,
behind their lying eyes.
~*~
When no one really,
gives a damn,
if she even lived or died-
Why is it that,
she still cares so much,
that for her, no one has cried?
~*~
And why can't she,
just be accepting,
that to them, she's only here-
Just a burden, in the way,
and not even worthy
a single tear?
~*~
Why is it, she fights this?
Why they treat her as such,
she'll never know.
Did she do something,
so terribly wrong,
that concern for her, they cannot show?
~*~
Maybe she just,
should make them happy-
take her leave and depart.
They've all but done it anyways,
by destroying
her very heart.
~*~
But no...she'll just go on,
loving and caring-
for its all she knows to do.
And forever, despondent,
she'll wonder why,
no one, could love her too...
~*~
know this feeling. great
know this feeling. great write!
I thank you...though sorry
I thank you...though sorry you know such a feeling. :/