Despondant

 

Despondent,

she sits alone.

So beaten down inside.

 

She no longer, even cares,

and takes it all

in stride.

~*~

 

These walls have become

her prison,

that nothing can break apart.

 

Both the actual foundation-

and the ones,

she's constructed around her heart.

~*~

 

She longs for

an open window-

to free her from this fate.

 

But only stark

and solid surroundings,

cement her lonely state.

~*~

 

There she sits,

and stares,

numbed by years of sorrow.

 

So emotionally drained

and empty,

she fears for each tomorrow.

~*~

 

She knows that there's

a door,

and that she could finally, be free.

 

But no one's ever tried

to help her open it,

even though they hold the key.

~*~

 

What could she have done,

to have earned

such utter disdain?

 

All she ever did was love,

yet, was only repaid-

with pain.

~*~

 

She gave all, of herself,

till nothing was left

to keep.

 

So deaf are they,

to her sadness,

they never hear her weep.

~*~

 

Long past dreaming

and wishing,

in things that never came to be.

 

She knows no one,

would even notice,

if life from her, would flee.

~*~

 

How she even got here,

is a mystery

she can't unravel.

 

For this was not,

a path she'd choose,

or willingly, would travel.

~*~

 

All she's ever wanted,

was acceptance...

and to be loved.

 

But all she gets,

is pretend emotion,

and pushed aside and shoved.

~*~

 

She's learned to hide the hurt,

behind her

welcoming smile.

 

Knowing the truth,

that their false concern,

will only last awhile.

~*~

 

Never did she, set out to hurt,

and if she did,

she'd aploogize.

 

But she always saw,

the hurtful truths,

behind their lying eyes.

~*~

 

When no one really,

gives a damn,

if she even lived or died-

 

Why is it that,

she still cares so much,

that for her, no one has cried?

~*~

 

And why can't she,

just be accepting,

that to them, she's only here-

 

Just a burden, in the way,

and not even worthy

a single tear?

~*~

 

Why is it, she fights this?

Why they treat her as such,

she'll never know.

 

Did she do something,

so terribly wrong,

that concern for her, they cannot show?

~*~

 

Maybe she just,

should make them happy-

take her leave and depart.

 

They've all but done it anyways,

by destroying

her very heart.

~*~

 

But no...she'll just go on,

loving and caring-

for its all she knows to do.

 

And forever, despondent,

she'll wonder why,

no one, could love her too...

~*~

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know this feeling. great

know this feeling. great write!

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I thank you...though sorry

I thank you...though sorry you know such a feeling. :/