Little girl of mine,
how I wish I could take
your burdon
upon myself.
I wish I could inflict
your pain
inside my being,
so you won't have to suffer.
I wish I could take
your fears
and quell them
inside my own heart.
I wish the fates
had marked me
as their conquest
and not you, my child.
I am not afraid of pain for myself,
but the fear of knowing you will hurt,
aches me more
than any pain I suffer.
Why couldn't it have been me?
What's one more disease
to this already afflicted soul?
I want the suffering, so you will not.
I'll glady bear the weight
so you may walk free
and easy minded,
no worries at your young heels.
I ask God to give your plight to me
to let me shoulder it,
let me take your place.
I ask this of Him daily.
Why must you be afflicted
with this disease
when here I am, a willing host?
Oh, why couldn't it be me?
06-29-04