I wished I didn't
awaken this morning...
for last night,
I dreamed me whole.
I dreamed me well.
There was no pain,
not a single ache,
nor twinge,
nor hurt.
Only utter peace.
It felt so good,
to feel something
other than agony,
other than misery
for a change.
It felt so right,
as if it were the way
I was meant to be,
had not fate
took hold the control.
I was liberated from
the heavy
and binding chains
which have held me captive
so many long years now.
Yet, it was almost as though
I was lost and unsure
of what to do,
for the pain had been
a constant companion so long.
I knew not
how to react
to this 'wellness'
when sickness
had always been.
Then morning set in
and the irony, along with it,
as I woke
to the omni-present agony
and the oldness of young bones.
I should have known better.
Should have realized it wasn't real.
For my dreams only come when asleep
and my nightmare,
every time I awaken.